Reality Check!


Monday, October 25, 2010

Makati Morning

I think I've posted this before-- Is it me or is the economy is simply low right now?

I've had almost 3-4 hours of belly dance session today. Tiring but fun. Had to learn the dances because the recital is coming up. That means no more rice for me plus I need to tighten up my belt because I've got bills, bills and a lot more bills to pay.

I'm missing my previous job now that I'm in need of extra cash.

I wanted to buy this book. Authors were Trinny and Sussanah. I'm not quite sure if the book is good. I actually haven't seen it in Powerbooks. Oh gosh, I really want to read up on a lot of Fashion books right now. I've already posted it in my Fashion Blog - the must reads. I'm not quite contented with styling class. I haven't really learned that much. We haven't even tried pulling out clothes from stores and designers yet. As much as possible I want to be able to use the course that I took up. I don't want it to go to waste. I mean.. come on. It's a given fact that I studied course because I'm really into it but I have to get something out of it. How am I going to be a fashion stylist if I don't even know how to contact and set the rate for photographers/models/MUA and others. I'm praying that I'll get to learn those along the way.

I'm planning on studying again but will see. I need to take things slowly.


Anyway, here are some pictures I took while walking in Makati-- reminds me a lot of the fun days in AC.

The usual scene. Traffic going to San Lo.


This used to be Park Square. There used to be a terminal of buses and jeepneys there. Memories of waiting in vain at the long line of Pateros Terminal.


HA!! I remember the earliest class I had was 7:45AM and I'd rush through this way early in the morning. On exam days, I remember studying while walking (yes!! I study while I walk. It was a habit) through this passage.

I miss being in college. :) The happiest and most tragic parts of life happened in college.

Oh well. :)



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Saturday, October 23, 2010

I want to FLY.

I missed traveling. I figured I have to be able to travel next year if not, then I will have to enroll myself in school and take another interesting course. :) What can I say.. studying keeps me young.

This week was A-ok. I kept my emotions (at work) on check every now and then. Try not to get pissed with the littlest of details. It can be tiring though.

Finally finished doing the bulletin boards. Thank God for sending me great friends who helped me out. We finished at around 11PM. I was disappointed about going home alone-- it felt "empty" that night. After a busy day, though I have friends around me.. it's a given fact that I am alone. I can't expect people to drive me home or whatever. Anyway, all's done and I guess I'm back to my "independent" self.

Oh gosh, I want to travel. It doesn't matter if it's in Asia or some far away continent. I wonder how it feels traveling with someone that you like/love? It's a shame if you break up after that. :P

I'm blabbing. It's a relaxing Saturday night. I'm happy even if I'm broke (yeah.. the effin' photoshoot's making me broke). No work on Monday!! YEY!! Belly dance class starts on early this coming Monday. I think around 10AM. Yey!! --- I wonder if I'll still be dancing til next year?

I want to travel..... yes, I think I've said that too many times tonight.


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Monday, October 11, 2010

Defenses

He was like a kid who had his defenses up. I felt it. It was a mix of crumpled emotions which he chose to hide behind his jokes and witty remarks but were evident in his eyes.

I don't read minds. I bluffed when I told him that. I only know how to decode behavior and its patterns. This afternoon it was his coping mechanisms at work.

I feel bad for you my friend. I pray that God will give you strength to face each challenges. I pray that God will guide you to make the right decisions when I'm already away.

I feel bad because I can't do anything. I am only a friend.

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Sunday, October 10, 2010

Army of Greatness my BUTT

ME: October 10 at 10:01pm
Sir, how about.. Army of Greatness.
hahahahahahaha!
now I wanna hide. :D

MENTOR: October 10 at 10:04pm
oh my goodness

MENTOR: October 10 at 10:12pm
Circle of Champions, Champion's League or League of Champions, Team Synergy, People Builders, Team Fusion, People Engagement and Progress PEP Team

ME: October 10 at 10:20pm
hahahahaha! my oh my.
Now I kinda get it. :D


...Oh my!!! Can I really do this? I can't even think of a decent name. Come on- Mamon! :D Super I want to hide my face. BooohooO for the hideous names. wahahahah! Ugly sh!t. Ok.. I got to think some more...



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Saturday, October 09, 2010

Reality AS USUAL

DID I MARRY THE RIGHT PERSON?

During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said, "How do I know if I married the right person?"
I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, "It depends. Is that your husband?"
In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?"

Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind.

Here's the answer.
EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse/partner. You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies (unconventional behavior/habit) .

Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience.
You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love... Because it's happening TO YOU.

People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet." Think about the imagery of that __expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU.

Falling in love is easy. It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria (excitement) of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, "Did I marry the right person?"
And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else.
This is when marriages or relationship breakdown. People blame their spouse/partner for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage/relationsh ip for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious.
But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, excessive TV, or abusive substances.

But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it.
I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else.
You could.

And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this):

THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE/RELATIONSH IP IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't "find" LASTING love. You have to "make" it day in and day out. That's why we have the __expression "the labor of love." Because it takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it takes WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage/relationsh ip work. Sure true love can only happen after you've fallen out of love. When you begin choosing to love, even if you don't feel like doing it ---- that's true love. And that's the foundation of a lasting and strong marriage.


Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage.

Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships.
Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger.
It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable. .. you can "make"love.

Love is indeed a "decision".. . Not just a feeling. You'll not just go away with your relationship just because the feeling is gone. In the Bible, love is a command. You make it happen.

Remember this always:

"God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go."
FW: Ruth Beltran

"Marriage is more than saying I Do. Marriage, like a precious plant, needs constant tending for it to grow, flourish, and bear fruti to last a lifetime, and beyond."
-David and Evelyn Feliciano
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TAKE TIME TO READ... TO THOSE WHO ARE NOT MARRIED YET, YOU MIGHT LEARN FROM IT... AND TO THOSE WHO ARE ALREADY MARRIED, YOU STILL MIGHT LEARN FROM IT.. :D
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Now this left me thinking. Love is a decision -- just like what Scott Peck said.
Love sucks and it leaves me frustrated every time. Every single effin' time.

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Sunday Laziness

AigooooO! Me and my sister are obliged to go to my cousin's house. AigooooooO! Yes, we are lazy. This is what we call the Sunday Laziness. hahaha!

Caeyo: What's your ideal Sunday like?
Cham: Staying at home, doing nothing. SS501-ing.
Caeyo: Same here. I'm gonna fix myself another cup of coffee.. maybe that'll kick me out of these pjamas. harhar

Seriously. I wonder why I hate attending birthdays, baptisms, weddings and any other events. It doesn't show but barely like attending those stuffs. Lazy ass.

Caeyo, stop blogging and start fixing yourself. This is NETWORKING. Make it work for you. Business people will be there. GO. Get up. GO.



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Everything


God, will it be crazy if I tell you that I'm scared? Scared of tomorrow. Scared of what might happen next. Maybe I lack faith. Maybe I'm naturally pessimistic. Maybe I worry too much. Maybe I'm sick in the head or maybe it really is just plain scary.

I lost my safest place years ago. It felt like I lost everything. I've tried to find that safe place over and over only to discover that the way I perceive it .. it's plain distorted already. At times I don't know what to believe in.

God...if that safest place still does exist, lead me towards it because I don't want to feel scared anymore.

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Friday, October 08, 2010

Once Again

I'm really trying my best not whine and gripe about the things happening at work but I'm just so full of it.

Pardon my negativity.

It's becoming a struggle day by day. I feel like my ability is being tested every now and then. I want to do something but I'm not the one to make a decision. What should I do?

Maybe in the future I'll encounter challenges bigger than this.

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Just when I needed someone to be there......................................................... no one's there.
Do I need to cry for help?
Hell No.

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I gotta call my mentor.......................................................................................................


I'm messed up--- ONCE AGAIN.

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Thursday, October 07, 2010

Cafeteria Mayhem

I feel BAD.
So bad that I don't want to type anymore.

Funny how I can't stop crying just because of some stupid food costing and a bunch of tralalas from other departments.

Even my mom knows that I'm tooooooooo upset tonight. Can you believe it?

I'm dead tired.


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Monday, October 04, 2010

I want to GO.

"I'm standing over the edge of this industry... wondering if it's all that important to me. ..Should I go? Should I stay? I'm in control either way." - Should I go, BRANDY


Few more months and I'm off to Freedom ville. I'm loathing because there's work tomorrow. VL's over by 12 midnight. BoooHoooO!

I wonder I feel so underpaid and overly "used" these days. hehehe..

Hold on Caeyo. Hold your impatient self.




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Sunday, October 03, 2010

Rings

I just discovered that my dad never gave my mom an engagement ring. I wonder how my dad proposed to my mom.

I don't know what's happening to me lately. I've been thinking about marriage and having a family. BoooO! I don't even have a boyfriend. BooooOOO! BooooO!

Oh well. Since I'm blabbing about engagement rings tonight.. ..I'll just blab some more. hehehe..

I was surprised to see Paris Hilton's super big engagement ring. Receiving a big diamond is an amazing thing but I don't think I would want to receive a big diamond that's gonna take up a whole lotta space on my finger (but I don't like an itsy bitsy diamond either).




Yeah, that's my hand in the picture. I'm wearing a diamond ring and wedding band that my mom gave me. That size is but OK. Plain Ok.




Will this pass as an engagement ring? De Beers ring (Dragonfly). Saw this in their website. It's not really an engagement ring but that'll be nice. :)


Love the band of diamonds but not the ring itself. hehehe.. too common. :P

Oh well, whatever. I'm bored and scattered brain-- as usual. I know these rings doesn't guarantee a love that will stand the test of time but it would be perfect if a girl will receive one. Maybe my dad couldn't afford to buy my mom a ring at that time, I understand (a bit) but he could've tried. If I'm not gonna get the ring that I deserve (i wouldn't settle for anything mediocre)... then I'm gonna buy one for myself. hehehe..

...yes. i'm dead serious. :)

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Saturday, October 02, 2010

I want!

Is it the economic crisis or is it just me? :P
Oh God, send me an angel who'd buy this book for me. Please please please. I badly want to read it. :)

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