Reality Check!
Thursday, August 30, 2007 Longing For More Vacation  Squatting at the airport  Lost in Translation... well, Cathy and I really got lost! Posing with the MAARTENG CHICKEN with pretty Cathy, experimental moi, cheery Arlene & Abigael.Works sucks. I miss traveling. I miss Hong Kong. I miss vacation. Gosh, I miss being a bum. I got my payslip today. Goodness! How am I suppose to save for my KOREA trip (with abitoots...hehe) with this low compensation?! Ok, I don't think it's THAT low but I'm really having a hard time saving for the trip. Well, I might just settle for a KOREAN language class instead (...mmm... maybe until I get to really save for KOREA and get a VISA... and probably marry Rain. hahahaha!) 
Monday, August 20, 2007 Take me as you Find Meby Laurie c.2000 I am sentimental, old school values, I am sensitive, but strong............ I am a silly - heart, I am kind and honest, I am angry for being wronged. I can dream and forgive, I can be stubborn when I believe that I am right. I am sassy and bold, I think I am in control I can be at a stand off when I am offended , I take things to the heart. I am proud of who I am and where I am from. I carry my own baggage, I won't weigh you down. I cry when I am sad, I try not to judge anyone, I try not to hold grudges. I am protective, I love forever, I pray every night. This is me , please take me as you find me............. An old friend reminded me that my x is finally visiting the Phils. and that we'll be having a "FAMILY" reunion. Frankly, I'm not so into it. I transparently told my friend (who happened to be my sister in that SO CALLED family) that I'm not really interested with the reunion and I might not be able to come. A lot changed. If I was asked years ago about this reunion, I would have eagerly accepted the invitation (even though I don't really feel like going). I would have lied and pretend that I am so excited to meet everyone. But now, I just have to be blunt about it. It's not about my x; it's about the OTHER people that will surely be there. Years ago, I thought that I was just paranoid about those people not liking me. Now I know that I ain't paranoid - I'm just sensitive and keen about non verbal cues (no wonder I took Psychology as my course). Those people were nice to me only if my x was with me. I know it happened a long time ago but my high school life was full of shit that I don't even want to see their faces EVER. I was probably hurt and somehow traumatized. And now that I percieve myself differently (hell, I owe this to my friends in Assumption most especially the PEEPS and my bestfriends), I'm not going to let my SO CALLED FRIENDS/FAMILY step on me again. I'd rather have a few genuine friends than have a bunch of phonies around me. ...and if ever they get to read this... and reacted negatively... then it simply conveys that they're really shitheads. *susumbong ko kayo kay Pettie my doggie! wehehehe
Saturday, August 18, 2007 Even though we don't get to talk everyday or send each other long e-mails or whatever, we've been through a lot and we've learned tons of lessons from each other that I don't think not keeping in touch will change our sisterhood. I learned to speak up and defend myself because of my two bestfriends. They were right - I have to be wise enough to look out for myself because they're not going to be with me all the time. It's sad but as I've said ... I'm happy for her. To my two bestfriends in the whole world: I love you so much. Our friendship is an elastic one that no distance, people nor situation can ever break it. Till death do us part, sisters. ...yes, I had a little drink which is why I'm overreacting right now. teehee!
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