I just finished reading a book that I borrowed from a friend. I've been dying to read that book but I always have no time to read stuff that are not actually school related. The book is GOOD! Well, I can relate to it. HA!

1. "OH Monica, you're so nice..." - The guy used this line as an excuse for breaking up with his girl. I can't believe it. Kasalanan na ba talaga ang maging mashadong mabait sa isang relasyon? Hindi ba dapat ay mabuti yon? This break up line really caught my attention. Someone told me that line already. This is actually one of the things I can't (and maybe I don't) want to understand. Can't some people just be happy and contented with their saintly girlfriends?

2. Reasons not to text Itos (main character's ex)

- he is confused, space-hungry man who will ignore my text

- he doesn't deserve my 1.00 peso worth of affection

-he isn't even thinking about me

Reasons to text Itos

-I still love him so much!!!

[ok, this is so like ME. I had been holding myself back from texting my x just like Monica and like her, I also wrote down every reason not to get in touch with my beloved x. Like Monica, I'm quite successful... QUITE. There was even a time when I've already composed a message (I think I've been composing the message for 10-15 mins. and to think... it's only a text message! sus!)...and just when I'm about to press send... I was able to hold myself back from sending the message. I was sort of on a rehab. Actually, I feel like I'm still on it and I'm doing better. Like Itos, my x never really texted me. I know she's not thinking about me since she's already with someone else. oh whatever. and yes, a part of me is still screaming that I still love her... but not so much... I love her just enough for me to take her back... mmm... is that so much?]

3. "No one's ever adored me the way you did, Monica. And no one will ever will." - I remember my x telling me this line. It's not really the exact line... but something similar like this one. She loves me because I make her feel like a real "MAN". eeew. I was totally dependent on her. She was like my GOD or something. I let her decide on matters... even MY issues. I don't really argue with her (except when it's too OVER... and it's not arguing but err... CRYING!?). She was always in control and she loves it. That time, it was no biggie for me. I loved(loved?) her and I knw that it would make her happy... so I gave her her happiness (to the point that I just have to be silent with my pains because she's picked some girl over me). Now I'm beginning to wonder if she really did love me. I ADORED her more than anyone and she knows that. The feeling of being adored...makes one feel like a GOD... it heighens one's self esteem and I guess that the only reason why she chose to be with me for almost 2 years. Maybe if I let loose my monstrous side... maybe we didn't even last a month! She hates my baby and bratinella moments. ...I was just too... giving. It's sad to think that even after the break up, she still failed to see the inner me. ...nax!

4. Bouncing back is just like making a perfect cafe latte...it's a hard process but the product is always (or mostly...) worth it! ...can't relate? READ UP! <--- the breakup diaries by Maya O. Calica.