Just the other night, I was able to sum up my courage to talk to my parents about resigning from my current job. It has been the nth time that I mentioned to them that I really want to leave the company and this is probably why they finally let me do what I want.

I submitted my resignation letter the following day. I had a LONG talk with my supervisor. BOTTOMLINE: my resignation got rejected.

It's true that I'm a "flight response" type of person. I need to improve more on my confidence and I really need to get out of my shell. BUT that doesn't mean that I'm so not ready to leave the company. Yes, my supervisor percieves it this way. I may not be confident but I know I've contributed a lot to the company (ex. I put up a system when it comes to doing and allowing companies to reference check, I've proposed ways on how to market the company, I've put up a system when it comes to exit interviews). I've done stuff that none of my confident colleagues have done. I just don't get it why she percieves me this way.

My supervisor may be concerned about my growth (or may be not). Don't get me wrong, I appreciate this. I appreciate her not allowing me to leave them. But there are certain issues that I really don't agree with and I don't think I can live with.

She magnified the fact that the responsibilities that the other companies will give me are a lot heavier than what I am handling right now and that I'm lucky because I'm doing a pretty easy job at our office. Well, I don't care. I think the heavier the responsibilities are, the bigger the lessons to learn.

Things I hate in my job:

1. My work desk - they placed me at the frontdesk and applicants think that I'm a receptionist. EXCUSE ME!

2. Lunch break - we don't have a fixed lunch time. We don't consume a whole of 1 hour. We don't get to eat on time. We're sometimes asked to eat the food that the company serves... parang walang option but to eat it. ...IT DOESN'T TASTE GOOD.

3. TIME OFF - there's like this unspoken rule that we can't leave the company at exactly 5:30 so we get off from work something later than 5:30 .. like 6pm onwards.

4. WE don't eat out or hang out after work.

5. We can't treat agents the way I want to. The management thinks that these people are thick skinned.--- which I think does not apply to everyone.

6. The new contract wasn't explained well to the agents . It was my supervisor's instruction not to explain it. LESS TALK, LESS MISTAKE. --- I think as HR PEOPLE, we should explain everything that's on the contract because it's our responsibility to ensure that these agents understand what they're getting into (some of the agents are really gullible).

7. I don't know if the people I work with are genuine. I think they're not. It's all business for them. Unfortunately, I don't sacrifice my values over business. It's my values vs. work.

I'm really going to resign from this company (for the nth time). I'm going to make sure that they see that I'm ready for it.