I had a cup of coffee and I can't sleep so I decided to just open my friendster account... scan... look for friends... and voila! There I was shocked with... what I saw. Well, it's not really a biggie. I just saw this known butchee of the "butchee world"... and she's actually engaged! yes! As in! I still can't believe it. Lots of girls like her...she's smart, good looking, rich, well - educated... nice. Lahat na. Her girl's luckY! :) Well, I guess both of them are lucky. Both are very much in love.

Mmm... I wonder if I'll ever get married. I ain't liking anyone right now. No prospects. No dates. No nothing. I am actually not ready to date yet. In fact, I miss her a lot.

I guess it'll be harder for me to commit in a relationship this time. I don't want anymore heart breaks. I kinda envy that butchee - the one who's getting married. ...er... I kinda envy her girl. OK... I envy both of them! LOL. They've found "love". They're both willing to sacrifice the proximity and their time together. They've given their promises. Man, they're engaged! I hope to experience that SOMEDAY.

It still hurts. The thing that hurts me more is... I never really experienced that kind of LOVE from her... I was never enough. IT still stings.

Though there are changes that happened... some things just can't change. Relatives still stink...a ms. "i'm like you" cousin is still a backstabber... my heart's still broken... my friends are still THE BEST...next to my PARENTS... yadah yadah...

oh, whatever... maybe I'm just tired.