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Saturday, April 24, 2010

From a Friend

From a friend..

FRIEND April 25 at 2:20am

sorry bout the cat thing, just being honest thats all and besides just like what i've said your the only person who understands me these days. well you know your right, that God must have a really good reason why i'm here and why you are too, your deppresed somewhat and i'm disgusted somewhat so maybe God led me to you to let me understand something which untill now i still cant see, maybe if i open up a little bit? coz you said i have already closed my mind, right? but you seem to see right through me which sometimes scares me, you got something whcih i dont know what, but you seem find a way through my thick skull and my stoned out heart to be melow or understand whats happening, you have a way to make me laugh or smile sometimes regardless on how i feel, maybe because i'm depprived of a good conversation with someone who is smart and intellectual, you really are a good friend to have, to tell you honestly sometimes i'm pissed of when some people say things bout you coz they tend to judge you before they learn the facts or they just dont know who you are, i tend to protect the people who understands me, really you do, i know the day will come that we have to go our seperate ways but hey where ever i may be, i wont forget that one time in my life, i met a person like you, just like what i've promised, if ever my writtings is published, you will be there for sure, but if not, i'll make sure your one of the few who will read it.

.."its 3 am and i'm still wide awake, its evil time and thats probablly why, my mind is so full of ideas, plans, dreams and thoughts, but when morning comes it all disappears, God really works mysteriously, maybe someday i get to undertstand Him again, looking forward to it though, wtih a little bit of help with people who knows me, but for now thay are rare breed, coz probablly they just dont like to know why, but then again there are some who tends to listen patiently, maybe i found that person, i do hope that person will be patient with me this time coz i hate loosing them, the only person i know who knew me well enough to understand me had to go to another place which made me really sad, but then again as the saying goes " if God closes a door He opens a window" a small window, a small person with a big heart, have i found this person or has this person found me. a little bit of crayziness and once also conffused, but it dosent matter as long as this person can understand me and see right through me, has a way in making me laugh or smile despite what ever maddness is in my mind, makes me reallize that The Lord is just testing me and my faith, scarry at times but really just loves to laugh. if i ever met you i promise there will be a place in my heart for you. but then again, its just wishfull thinking"......

o ayan na isulat na kita sa book ko or anong tawag dyan writtings. save mo para pag tumanda ka e maalala mo pa ako, almost sunlight, balik na ako sa lunga ko hehehehee thank God for you mam, may blessings pa din pala ako natatangap despite of everything, see ya!

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