It was a big disappointment when I saw him excused his self and left the table after I finished a phone call. It was stupid because me and my friend pretended that the call came from a special person. Duh. It came from a special person - it was my dad who called. We playfully giggled with each other while we waited for his reaction. And... there... after less than 5 minutes of non stop giggling, he excused his self and decided to leave early.

I've been ignoring him for the past days. Successfully ignoring him for 1 week already. Congratulate me please. It's tough not to look at him. It's even hard not to smell him. Yes yes yes... I can even smell his perfume in our elevators. Sucks big time. It leaves me missing him. But then again, I have no choice left but to stand for myself since he can't really stand up for me.

I have fully confirmed that I really have AN effect on him. Maybe he just lied that night. Maybe. Maybe not. I don't get the part where he chooses to reject me whenever I approach him and yet he tries his best to grab my attention everytime I diss him.

To be on the safe side, I'll just leave it to this: He likes the attention that he gets from me but he doesn't like me. And since this is the case, I'd rather be nothing to him. No smiles from me. No eye contact. No hi's and goodbye's. No nothing. It's all or nothing and with the way things are... I think he has long chosen NOTHING. So be it.

It's a tough decision since I'm a softy. I value relationships but I can't hold on to crap like this. I need to be valued once and for all. I might be down once in a while.. might be missing him whenever.. but laying my heart on the line all over again will never change the situation. I've done my part and now it's his turn. It's his turn to jump and take a risk.

Question is, is he man enough to take that risk?

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