Friday, October 21, 2005

Kroco: TAKE 2

Here I am… alone again. I just got home from a pre-halloween dinner with my friends. Our guy friends were late and so we had to wait outside the restaurant because we need to be 8 in order to get in there and at that time, there was only 6 of us.

We had dinner, we were already drinking… and at last, our guy friends arrived. I was quite pissed off. I’ve always hated waiting. Mmm… let’s just say they had a WORD from me. It kind of made me feel bad though. But anyway, all’s fine now. I was able to talk to one of them and said my apologies.

I can’t believe I’m so down. I am soooooo down. I’m not drunk. I just had a shot of Blow Job (and guess what? I set my thumb on fire! Hahaha! CLUTZ!) and two glasses of J&B with coke. I wasn’t tipsy at all.

Cowee, a good friend of mine dropped by to see me. Too bad, we weren’t able to talk that long. She invited me for a coffee but I really had to go home. Cowee is special. Ever since I was in junior high, she has been there for me. We both know each other’s heart aches. I’m glad to have a friend like her (she’s kind of cute also… but that’s just about it).

Have you ever felt like you are alone? I mean, you are surrounded by people whom you know… people that are close to you and yet you feel like you are different? It’s probably just me… thinking weird. I miss having someone to talk to. Someone who will just listen and tell me that she/he’s just there…will never get tired of hearing me out.. whatever. I’m talking bull. I can handle this… aja! Fighting!

…Have you ever lost someone who makes you feel alive?


for my friend.. i know that you're hurting.. -hugz-
Save your tears for someone who won't make you cry...

BLIND MAN
Do you ever feel…
The sorrow that lingers behind my smile?
Do you ever see the tears…
That have been held back for the longest time?
But you’ll never see…
And you’ll always be deaf from the unspoken.
When will you ever deem…
Of A love…
My love that has been there since forever?
Should I weep in front of you?
Should I kneel for you to see the truth?
An emotion buried in the dark…
Something that you will never treasure.
It echoes endlessly:
“Acceptance will set you free”
Will it push me to liberty?
Or will it merely immortalize my insanity?
Trapped in the corners of my sentiments…
No words can make this halcyon.
Not even rage or sympathy…
This is me being wretched…
With something that you’ll never see.
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