I just finished watching a Cinderella Story. Yes, it’s a chick flick with the typical mean girls in it. It has a nice ending, Chad Michael Murray and Hilary Duff lived happily ever after – just like what happened in the real Cinderella Story.
Yes, this is just one corny movie and it really surprised me that it actually carried some lessons that I can relate with.

1. Keep on dreaming. It may seem tough to continue on dreaming and hoping and shits like that. It can get really tiring. Honestly, I’ve been quite tired waiting for me to be happy. I can’t wait to meet my prince and get over this heartache. I know that I am so wrong. I can be happy even without my prince. I kept on telling myself that. I guess I have to get over this heartache first then that’s the time that I’ll resume on dreaming and waiting for the right person to come. And… ahem… it should be a prince not another princess (hopefully). I need to be more patient. I have to remind myself often that I’m still young and in time I’ll be able to find a person even more beautiful than Chad Michael Murray and Dermot Mulroney! HA!

2. Take charge and be in control of yourself. I am a very emotional person and my mood shifts a lot – fast. Sometimes other people think that I actually have a bipolar disorder. Probably I have been like this because I am not so in control of myself. I let my feelings get on the way. My thoughts are rapidly flashing that it also quickly influences the way I perceive things. I just realized now that… What if all’s not so bad and I’m just making a big problem out of small issues? I have to be control and I know that it will take a lot of practice before I can finally change the way I approach things.

3. Be in control of the situation. I cannot be in control of the situation if I am not in control of myself otherwise I’ll end up controlling others and not the situation itself. Just like what my uncle told me… I have to shift my paradigms. I guess being in control of the situation means knowing that in this life, we are never going to run out of options. It’s just that at times, the options that fate serves us are not really the options that we prefer… but in the end, these are still considered options. I have to be flexible and this is one thing that I am so poor at. I guess I have to change a lot of things.

4. This is my old time favorite: I’M MY WORST FOE. Yes, I know I am capable of doing a lot of things… excelling in whatever aspect there is (yabang!) but I often fear failure. This is silly, I mean I am all that (yabang again!) and I know that I’m good and fear’s just blocking my way to success. Ever since I can think for myself, I have not been confident. I often need reassurance. I need security – too much security that is. Maybe because underneath all that I am capable of doing, I am too insecure to face the fact that I am dead single. I have not been single for a while. Well, being single doesn’t hurt after all.

5. ….being single doesn’t hurt but I got to face the fact that I just miss having a constant companion especially since it is very hard to trust the very people that are around you. I am not very skeptic and I don’t usually think this way but now I realized that this is the reality. I know that I am still hurting and I can say that I love myself more than ever. It’s not being selfish but I’ve been foolishly selfish for the longest time. Anyway, the bottom line is that I am new to this being “single” lifestyle because finally I get to think of myself and not what will make other people happy.


I don’t know why I have to put this entry on my blog and not in my notebook. Probably because I want the readers to pick up something useful from it. The movie is just … empowering. It’s nothing grand but it has this overwhelming effect on me. Because of a lot of disappointments, I had actually let go of the thought that I’ll be meeting my prince or that I can make my dreams come true but … I am not absolutely going to die if I keep on dreaming right? Thus it just makes all the impossible… happen. Good luck to me!