Spent my Friday at Eastwood handling out flyers for our job vacancies. Got to admit it didn't feel good doing the job.

It was an experience. I'll never forget of being continuously rejected by these strangers. I was walking around with a bunch of flyers in my hands when I suddenly thought that "Hey .. this is what has been happening to me lately." Handing out flyers is like handing out a piece of yourself to someone. Some were interested while others were not. It even came to a point when the fliers were rejected 5 consecutive times. What to say.. mm.. It really takes courage to handout a piece of yourself to a person. Not everyone will take the risk of stepping forward to show another what she can offer. A colleague openly told me that she doesn't want to do the flyering because she hates being rejected. Well, who likes being rejected anyway? :) The important thing is you've tried.

I tried. I tried my best to finish the flyers. I tried my best to offer the best of me to someone who wouldn't even dare to extend his arms to check out the other side of me.

What's good about being continuously rejected is that you get used to it. The first rejction was more of a shock. The second rejection makes one realize the strategy being used to the subject. The third rejection can make one feel bad about his self. The fourth can make one feel desperate - can make one leave and give up. The fifth is the crucial one - it's when one already feels NUMB from the rejections.

I guess when a person gets numb from a series of rejections, it makes one to stay still and hybernate.

I am hybernating from the rest of the world today. I just don't understand why everytime I choose to hybernate, the heavens would send me a message that I've to hold on and nurture these feeling (a mix of sadness, love, confusion and disappointment). You see, I attended the 4AM mass. The homily was about miracles and faith. Weird. I planned on moving forward after this hybernation and now I'm getting a message about having a strong belief that nothing is impossible.

Am I just being impatient because of the series of rejections I got from him for the past days? Or is there really hope for the flowers?

Hay. Cheers to hybernation. Bleh!

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