caeyo: I wonder if you have always hated me. I just think that I deserve a clear explanation about everything. I don't know why but I feel like I'm left hanging. I don't think I got the closure that I needed from you. Maybe I was left in disbelief. I was probably disillusioned... maybe I still am. What hurts until now is we didn't get to save our friendship. It really was a bad break up since I've gotten so dependent on you. I think I still am. I can't believe some things never change. I don't know if you'll get this. I'm probably blocked off from your list and you probably think that this message is trash. It's fine with me, it'll always be ok. Just be happy because right at this moment, I'm loving you in the best way that I can.