Monday, August 14, 2006 I used to love it when it rains Every rain drop reminds me that it’s still not over. Every rain drop reminds me that I ‘m pressured to put a happy front. Every rain drop reminds me that I’ve been left alone and I’m just too damn busy to let it all sink in (again). Every rain drop reminds me that I lost the very core of my life. Every raindrop reminds me that I am battling with myself – with my heart. Every raindrop reminds me that I would still give up everything just to turn back the hands of time. Every raindrop reminds me that I am drowning in a pool of misery. Every raindrop reminds me why I don’t want to engage in another fucken relationship. Every raindrop reminds me that I am silently waiting for my sun’s return.Every raindrop reminds me that I am sick of pretending. Every raindrop reminds me that all my questions have remained unanswered.Every raindrop reminds me all that I’ve done just to get back on track. Every raindrop reminds me that I’ve done everything but I’m still a failure. Every raindrop reminds me that I’m tired. Every raindrop reminds me that I lost my safest place. Every raindrop reminds me that I can never have her back and I have to deal with that mother fuck'n fact.
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