An old friend reminded me that my x is finally visiting the Phils. and that we'll be having a "FAMILY" reunion. Frankly, I'm not so into it. I transparently told my friend (who happened to be my sister in that SO CALLED family) that I'm not really interested with the reunion and I might not be able to come.

A lot changed. If I was asked years ago about this reunion, I would have eagerly accepted the invitation (even though I don't really feel like going). I would have lied and pretend that I am so excited to meet everyone. But now, I just have to be blunt about it. It's not about my x; it's about the OTHER people that will surely be there.

Years ago, I thought that I was just paranoid about those people not liking me. Now I know that I ain't paranoid - I'm just sensitive and keen about non verbal cues (no wonder I took Psychology as my course). Those people were nice to me only if my x was with me.

I know it happened a long time ago but my high school life was full of shit that I don't even want to see their faces EVER. I was probably hurt and somehow traumatized. And now that I percieve myself differently (hell, I owe this to my friends in Assumption most especially the PEEPS and my bestfriends), I'm not going to let my SO CALLED FRIENDS/FAMILY step on me again. I'd rather have a few genuine friends than have a bunch of phonies around me.

...and if ever they get to read this... and reacted negatively... then it simply conveys that they're really shitheads.