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Sunday, August 16, 2009

Practical vs. Stingy

Practical: concerned with actual facts and experience, not theory; plain, functional, and suitable for everyday use.

Stingy: not generous in giving or spending money; ungenerously small or inadequate

I have been bothered by the issue of Practicality vs. Stinginess. It used to be something that never troubled me until the concern was shoved to my face in a gentle manner days ago. The way that it was relayed to me was not brutal at all but it was a harsh thrust to my ego. At first I felt uncomfortable and didn’t understand the ill feeling that I had when I heard the word KURIPOT.

Am I really stingy?

After days of keeping quiet, I realized that I am not stingy but practical. I have learned the value of hard earned money since I was young. When I was in grade school, my parents would give me just enough allowance and I needed to save up for the things that I wanted to buy. When I was in high school, I learned to sell cookies and chocolates to my classmates so I can join my friends to the mall or to night outs. I pride myself for not asking money from my parents at such a young age. I vowed to myself that once I stepped out from school, I will always be independent.
When it comes to buying things, I learned to scout for items that are of good quality yet don’t burn holes in my pocket. I consider that a talent I have mastered since college. During that time, my uncle would give me a certain amount for my monthly allowance and I had to budget it – this includes my daily allowance, extra curricular payments for school activities/needs, and other necessities (hygiene, clothes, medicine, etc.). It was hard to plan for allocating resources but the experience made me a more mature individual.

I have seen people purchase expensive stuffs. I watched them intently and promised myself that once things are fine, I’d be able to do the same. You see, there are things in my life that are far more important than a new pair of shoes or a bag that costs a semester’s tuition fee. I can fly to another country, dine in a good restaurant, or even shop until I drop. I can do all these things now.But some PEOPLE RELY ON ME so I need to think first - think hard before spending for myself. It’s not like I starve myself to death or scour a rack of sale items (not that there’s something wrong about doing that). It's what you call BEING SELFLESS,KNOWING YOUR PRIORITIES and HAVING SELF DISCIPLINE (something that not all girls my age have). I just find it unfair that someone can easily judge me because she doesn’t understand where I am coming from or perhaps has forgotten where I am coming from.

I feel sad because it had to come from you – the person that I thought would not make me feel this way because (heck!) we share the same concerns. I’m sorry I expected too much from you. I don’t think there’s a need for me to state the brand of my wallet or my new make-up or things that I bought recently just so you’d pick up that I am not what you think I am. It’s too insignificant. Don’t see me by our differences. See me by how I treat you as a person - as a friend. See me by the things that I did when you needed help. See me when I had to cut ties with someone just to protect you. I hope you’d see that I value our friendship too much that’s why I’ll choose to forget about this and just let it pass.

Maybe I really am KURIPOT but when it comes to our friendship, I give way too much.

Disappointing. =/

Posted by Caeyo :: 2:49 PM :: 1 Comments:

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Friday, July 03, 2009

Akkaranundha

I just got back from a stressful interview. I think I didn't qualify for the job (yes, I kinda lost my optimistic sense this afternoon). Kind of disappointing because I like the ambiance of the whole office - I also like the employees. Disappointing really. BUT BUT BUT.. life has to go on.

Maybe the job is not meant for me. I'm just disappointed (I think I use this word too much today) by the fact that I have to search for a good company again. It sort of feels like I have to find myself again (and again.. and again.. and again). Sometimes I feel like only an artsy type of person would understand what I'm going through.

Today isn't really a loss. I met this guy at the lobby of the company that I applied at. He's Thai. He approached me and got my name and number (as well as my email). Told me that he'll be starting a company similar to the company that I applied at. But it's not going to be in the Philippines - it's in Thailand. Anyway, to make the story short.. he sent me a message inviting me to his business presentation --- which led me to check out the site. It's a cool site. It has tons of logos and graphics. I don't know how young he is but I was stunned when I found out in the website that he is actually the managing director of the company. He has garnered awards and stuff yet when you look at him, he looks so... down to earth and simple.

Anyway, that's just it. I'm still thinking if I'll be coming to the presentation because it might just be networking. I'm really not the person to hire when it comes to that kind of biz.

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I got THE call!! They just called me to say that I'm shortlisted but I've to wait til July 17. Goshness. Hopefully they get to job offer me first. hehe

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